DEBORAH CARRUTHERS
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    • Ecstacies of Influence - Le Gesù, Amphithéâtre -Montréal - December 2018
    • slippages - The UBC Symphony Orchestra - Chan Centre - Vancouver - October 2018 >
      • slippages - Press
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    • Recent Exhibitions ... Now You See Me... >
      • The Aura of the Already Said - Zygote Gallery, Cleveland, Ohio - 2019 >
        • The Aura of the Already Said: Exhibition - Press
      • Souvenir / Souvenir - Montréal, Québec 2017 >
        • Souvenir / Souvenir - Press
        • Souvenir / Souvenir - Essay ​Culte du Souvenir
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        • About ​Safe Passage
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        • About the Photographs ...
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        • Souvenir / Souvenir : Invitation card
      • Souvenir sacré - Opasatika - Hearst, Ontario 2016
    • Residencies ... Home Away from Home >
      • Ecstasies of Influence : matralab, Concordia University - Montréal 2018 >
        • Ecstacies of Influence - December 16, 2018 - Le Gesù, Amphithéâtre - Montréal
      • The Past Sealed Away - Peter Wall Institute Artist in Residence - Vancouver, BC 2017 - 2018 >
        • The Past Sealed Away... Article
      • What's in a Song ? - Banff Centre for the Arts and Creativity, Banff, Alberta 2017
      • In The Hole - Saskatoon, Saskatchewan 2017
      • A Ubiquity of Sparrows : Banff Centre for the Arts and Creativity, Banff, Alberta 2016 >
        • A Ubiquity of Sparrows : Banff Installation
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    • slippages - 2018 >
      • slippages - Press
      • slippages - Instructions for play and score
      • slippages in the Studio: About my process >
        • slippages Athabasca -Photographs
        • slippages Immense Immensities
        • slippages Notebook
        • slippages Athabasca Painting
      • slippages - Performance Videos
    • Between the Song and the Silence: Berlin 2017 - 2020 >
      • Between the Song and the Silence: Graphic Score- Banff Iteration
      • My Muses
      • What's in a Name?
      • Taking Flight ... The Process
      • Swan Song... A summary of my process for my MFA research
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    • The Past Sealed Away... Prints
    • Immense Immensities
    • In The Hole
    • Mortsaf for My Father
    • Souvenir sacré
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    • Mortsaf
    • Genetics for Cowboys
    • Beautiful Ghosts
    • Niagara Tondos
    • Twinned
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Between the Song and the Silence: An "AH-HA" Moment

I tend to be someone who takes comments in and likes to sit with them awhile. For example: the issue of bringing “myself” into the “Between the Song and the Silence “work. After meeting with Sandeep Bhagwati, after the last crit, and after I had posted my response, I had an epiphany.

I had wanted to incorporate my muses of the elderly men engaging in conversational birdcalls with each other into the piece. I had been struggling with that, and so had taken everyone’s comments and suggestions and made a list of things to consider. I thought about each comment in relation to what I had done so far, and allowed myself the freedom to consider it through other’s eyes. I re-read some of the materials which provided me with creative impetus, and found that there were other things that jumped out at me, and that sharpened my focus.
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Then I woke up at 4:30 one morning and discovered that if I was prepared to let go of certain operational parameters which I had been stubbornly clinging to, and allow for some shifts in focus, I was able to make decisions which would move the project forward again.

In earlier conversations with Sandeep, I had made note of comments and points for consideration.
  • German audiences are considered to be musically sophisticated
  • Must be careful not to create caricatures
  • Professional vs amateur performers
  • The duration of the performance
  • Where would the performance would be staged
  • What kind of notation would be used

I had considered doing a performance in real time; then I realized the strain that type of durational performance would put on my birders. While content to spend hours standing still in a blind or the bush looking for birds, they might not be so comfortable with all eyes on them. I had difficulty letting go of the durational aspect, as I was going to tie the time of day to the type of bird call in the score. That being said, once I allowed myself to get rid of that constraint, it allowed me to consider other things that I wanted to emphasize, such as the narrative. In fact, the more I thought about it, the more I realized that what I wanted was more narrative and less didactics. Hmmm…the plot thickens!
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I realized the strain that type of durational performance would put on my birders. While content to spend hours standing still in a blind or the bush looking for birds, they might not be so comfortable with all eyes on them.
​ We acknowledge the support of the Canada Council for the Arts.
Nous remercions le Conseil des Arts du Canada de son soutien.
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  • Home
    • Artist Statement
    • Bio
  • Performances
    • Ecstacies of Influence - Le Gesù, Amphithéâtre -Montréal - December 2018
    • slippages - The UBC Symphony Orchestra - Chan Centre - Vancouver - October 2018 >
      • slippages - Press
      • slippages - Instructions for play and score
      • slippages in the Studio: About my process >
        • slippages Athabasca -Photographs
        • slippages Immense Immensities
        • slippages Notebook
        • slippages Athabasca Painting
      • slippages - Performance Videos
  • Exhibitions / Residencies
    • Recent Exhibitions ... Now You See Me... >
      • The Aura of the Already Said - Zygote Gallery, Cleveland, Ohio - 2019 >
        • The Aura of the Already Said: Exhibition - Press
      • Souvenir / Souvenir - Montréal, Québec 2017 >
        • Souvenir / Souvenir - Press
        • Souvenir / Souvenir - Essay ​Culte du Souvenir
        • Souvenir / Souvenir: About the Exhibition ...
        • About ​Safe Passage
        • About the Paintings ...
        • About the Photographs ...
        • About the Vitrines ...
        • Souvenir / Souvenir : Invitation card
      • Souvenir sacré - Opasatika - Hearst, Ontario 2016
    • Residencies ... Home Away from Home >
      • Ecstasies of Influence : matralab, Concordia University - Montréal 2018 >
        • Ecstacies of Influence - December 16, 2018 - Le Gesù, Amphithéâtre - Montréal
      • The Past Sealed Away - Peter Wall Institute Artist in Residence - Vancouver, BC 2017 - 2018 >
        • The Past Sealed Away... Article
      • What's in a Song ? - Banff Centre for the Arts and Creativity, Banff, Alberta 2017
      • In The Hole - Saskatoon, Saskatchewan 2017
      • A Ubiquity of Sparrows : Banff Centre for the Arts and Creativity, Banff, Alberta 2016 >
        • A Ubiquity of Sparrows : Banff Installation
  • Graphic Scores
    • slippages - 2018 >
      • slippages - Press
      • slippages - Instructions for play and score
      • slippages in the Studio: About my process >
        • slippages Athabasca -Photographs
        • slippages Immense Immensities
        • slippages Notebook
        • slippages Athabasca Painting
      • slippages - Performance Videos
    • Between the Song and the Silence: Berlin 2017 - 2020 >
      • Between the Song and the Silence: Graphic Score- Banff Iteration
      • My Muses
      • What's in a Name?
      • Taking Flight ... The Process
      • Swan Song... A summary of my process for my MFA research
  • Portfolio
    • The Past Sealed Away ...
    • The Past Sealed Away... Prints
    • Immense Immensities
    • In The Hole
    • Mortsaf for My Father
    • Souvenir sacré
    • Fleurs sacrées
    • Mortsaf
    • Genetics for Cowboys
    • Beautiful Ghosts
    • Niagara Tondos
    • Twinned
  • C V
  • Contact